“I can’t take more of this… , it’s way to hard… , nothing good ever comes in to my life… , why do all bad things happen to me…? Is this way to think something you recognize?
No judgment, all those thoughts is from my own experience, they sneak up on me whenever I’m not conscious, tiered or just a bit out of balance in my life.
I reckoned that I have been in a down pit for some days oe maybe weeks now, when all the bad things happens to me and the perspective are more at the negative point of view. I’m thankful that I eventually see it in my own behavior, and that the minute I see it I have the choice to change my way of looking at things and restart making things happen for me. Everyone can make a change in the way we think, every minute of every day.
This time when I take a look at the situation I can see it clear what has made me think like this. Stress, immediately when I get in to a situation where I don’t feel comfortable it strikes. I become unaware and start to listen to all the made up stories my mind make up to prevent me from go astray and change a winning concept. For God’s sake, a new situation can bring life-threatening things into my life, right? No, it’s not that likely to happen. I read some place that 85% of all the catastrophic thoughts we thing never happens…
15% isn’t that much so it may be worth the try…
I know how I work, yet sometimes it just happens. The times are fewer now a days but they occur. Practice is the key.
Today was a special day, we locked the door to the apartment for the last time and the keys were handed over to the landlord. For me it feels like such a relief, the time spent on going back and forth between the boat and the apartment are finally over. For the last week I’ve been annoyed and irritated over the, seemingly endless situation. I haven’t been a very fun person I can tell you that.
No one looks good in a “self pity sweater” if you ask me..
So now what… We await some new installment of solar panels and a toilet before we can head out on our beloved lake Vänern and our summer adventure. A good opportunity to practice patience, awareness and love for life in all it’s shades, in other words we will bee at the marina for a little more time.
I choose to se things through a different lens.. Life brings joy to me in some way everyday… , I’m given challenges that are exactly what I can handle, not less and not more… , what is this situation teaching me?… Etcetera.
Life becomes so much richer and loving when we are feeling rich and loving, like attract alike as the univeral law tells.
So I will remind me that I see things the way I am, not as they are necessary.
Bless you with awareness for this week!