Here we are now…

Such a lovely place, tiny alleys with stone houses in different colors though most are white. We have landed both physical and emotional.

We have wandered the streets of Vilaflor upwards and downwards a countless of times already in five days. It’s a village with all you could want for a vacation.

If you are interested in living here then you need to get used to no credit cards, no stress and dogs running around the streets like cats do in sweden.

When you are a swede like we are it’s a bit hard to get used to the standards and the way it’s done down here, but we are willing to learn and approach things with as open minds as we can.

Things started out a bit different than we planned, a flue hit Daniel on Tuesday and as I write this i feel it in my throat.

Today we took the bus to Los Cristianos to get some things needed for me to be able to work. And the most important thing, I got to swim in the ocean. Me and Pelle bathed but Daniel isn’t that keen of a dip as we are.

We were supposed to get down to cristianos early morning but when we had waited for the bus in thirty minutes we gave up and went back to the apartment, later I found out our phones switched back from Canary time zone to Sweden’s… It’s one hour ahead, so instead of waiting for the bus at six thirty we where waiting at it at five thirty.

I think the universe try to tell me to losen up a little bit, control is just an illusion, I know! Promise myself a bit more relaxation, deeper breathing, and laughter. Less stress, tension and worry and I’ll be just fine.

Tomorrow we’ll explore more of these beautiful surroundings.

Take care!

Marica

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Count down

Friday and packing day, not that easy to know what items to pack and not. Probably we’ll use a lot less then we think, I start to get a bit nervous.

We have finally done the final touches on the boat and she’s now ready for the winter.

We are now located in my parents caravan outside of my sisters home, enjoying the last days with family and friends.

Tomorrow we’ll meet up with Daniel’s family and celebrate his nephew turning 6 years old. A great way to say goodbye and so long before we leave.

Sunday will probably be a lot of nerves on my part, since neither of us have flown before it feels a bit scary. But “what goes up must come down”, as you say. We’ll be just fine and this is our great adventure. We will enjoy the final day with some friends and hopefully get some sleep before we go.

Now my sister and I will enjoy some movies about Tenerife on YouTube.

Wish you a good weekend 😃

Marica

Packing and cleaning..

Messy, mess could be the new name of the boat.. Things spread out everywhere and in this we live the three of us. But soon this summer goes to the history.

We try to figure out how to manage our 10kg hand luggage to fit in a 42*32*25 cm bag… Next time we’ll go for the wise guys when it comes to luggage and flight.

My stomach twist and turn every time I think of the fact that it’s only a week till we are off, but we take one step at the time and try to remember to be in the here and now.

Love ourselves and to be present is a key not to let things get out of hand. It’s so much to do in such a little time, all the things most important goes first. Like feeding the little one and make sure he is comfy. If the rest isn’t finished when we go… We have to solve it then.

Marica

Off we go..

10 days… In ten days we will step on a plane and be gone for six months. I can assure that this is way out of my brains comfort zone!

We are taking a major step on our way to live our lives in a pace of our own, without the security of a employment home in sweden and the security lines we find so familiar.

This is so scary and beautiful at the same time, I love the fact that we actually are doing this against all odds. Against all that we stood for just a few years ago.

I thought of rearrange this blog to a Swedish one, but I now feel like having it in English and I think this new experiences are going to make me wanna write stuff off.

So if I’m not making a post before we leave, I see you in Tenerife.

XOX

Marica

Into the blue once again

Spent a great weekend at the lake in our beloved Amie, aka sailboat and home with new found friends.

Home at the marina after three absolutely wonderful days at thenlake Vänern, felt soo good to leave the marina and heading out. We went not that far away, but far enough to feel the freedom of air and water.

We just met two absolutely amazing people Hanna and Michael, so happy and joyful spreading the love of life to everyone. I’m so grateful to have met these two guys and looking forward to spend some more time with them.

I feel like I’m so lucky to be alive and to meet all the great people that I have in my life. The more secure and loving. I become towards myself, the more loving and positive people I have met with, I thank the law of attraction for all this.

All the hard work with rhe boat has finally paid off with some bliz full days and I welcome more of them in to my life.

Now it’s time to get into bed and catch some sleep before the new week begins.

Wish you all the best and remember to acknowledge all the good things in life.

Marica

Self destruction and healing

Did you know that 95% of the decisions we take on a daily basis are ruled by the unconscious mind, aka the part of the mind that holds all the beliefs, safety thinking and habits?

This means that only 5% of the decisions are made out of curiosity, openness and new thinking.

I think this is scary, because it makes all of us kind of close minded. Don’t you think?

I am into self destruction right now, I don’t exercise, I overeat and I start to think of all the “wrong” decisions that’s got me at this point.

If I resonate with my subconscious mind and look at all the fears I recognize old patterns, when things get tough in my life or I get into the fields of the unknown and uncertainties I punish myself by eating too much and things that makes me ill in the long run, and I stop practicing yoga wich is helping me stay sharp and balanced.

I escape from my own feelings and by letting the safety systems kick in I find myself inside the comfort zone again..

Why this time?

We are stuck in the marina for the past 1,5 months due to a engine change and the following unlikely issues with that. This has caused us to lift the boat and take the propeller down.

Living on a boat in the water is a piece of cake contrary on land, especially with a toddler. So we have been trusted with some great family members who have offered us sleeping places. I am overwhelmed and so happy and thankful for the generosity of these people.

It’s hard to live like this, especially when we had the plan for this summer to be independent and sail around in Vänern to look around here before we leave for opeb waters.

So what is different this time from the past? I have a more open mind, I see the patterns and the old habits. I may not deal with it yet but I see it and I will be working on it from now on. This will make me use lesser of my subconscious mind and more of my conscious mind, I think.

Here’s a link to a great article about the topic.

I am convinced that I will work on this and become more and more aware of my own issues and obstacles that i put in my way. From now on I will deal with the uncomfortable feelings and negative thoughts.

Hope you enjoyed, and I promise to be back soon to post something new. And remember…

You become what you think of the most

Marica

Contribution and YouTube 

How can I contribute to the world I live in today? What is my purpose?
I’ve asked myself these questions more often than I can count nowadays.

I’ve decided to start my own YouTube v-log channel so if you want to follow click here to watch my premiere video.

Be nice and if you like the video push like and subscribe, I will definitely turn the camera around for the next one and maybe I have the courage to take my glasses off ☺️

I hope  you enjoying a good weekend.

Marica

Ignorance… Is bliss

Sometimes when I meet ignorant people I just can’t seem to find the strength I need to prevent them to get under my skin.. It’s like a disease multiples inside and I just want to escape this earth. Instead of standing tall and questioning their ignorance towards people that aren’t like minded. 

The most awkward thing is that I start to question myself and my beliefs or actions and if my path is the right one or if I should just surrender to the “normal” world order.i get to convince myself that no one else needs to understand or approve my life, but respect it and leave it. 

I see no bad thing in questioning things from time to time and reconsider or reevaluate the situation one are in, it’s a must do if one live a life in truth to oneself, but the bitter taste isn’t left behind in such situation. 

Ignorance and certainty of a subject with no understanding for others point of view is a cancer in this world today, and the one who is querying this is derided and/or ridiculed by the masses and the invoke of  “science and proven experience” as they say in this particular authority. 

Once again there is nothing good in the way to beautify being unique in this western society. Today I wonder how on earth am I going to look my son in the eyes and urge him to be unique and to stand for what he believe is right in his heart when I know how he will be treated? If nothing happens soon that turn this world around and makes it a place where love and understanding for the fact that everyone has their own path and life purpose to be outlived instead of discourage people with different ideas to stay inside the lines. Then this downward spiral is going to increase at the speed of an avalanche with hatred and fear. 

All the invisible lines that is unspoken but so clear once it’s overstepped. Or all the voluntary participations we have in this society, that infact weren’t voluntary when you skipped one… Or didn’t do it the right way. 

I’m pissed and I’m tired of being forced inside boundaries and limitations that makes me feel untrue to me and my loved ones. I will not stop questioning people and their ignorance towards new or alternative facts. I will continue living my life in trust to my heart and soul. 

I will raise my son to think for himself and to stay true to hos heart. But I will teach him that the quote: “Ignorance is bliss” are likewise to “Lack of knowledge results in happiness; it is more comfortable not to know certain things” 

I know that most people act out of their own reality and altered degrees of knowledge, that is ok! This particular situation is about an encounter with as it’s called educated people with position of power, which is scary to think of. 

Happy weekend! 

❤️

Marica 

You see things the way you are 

“I can’t take more of this… , it’s way to hard… , nothing good ever comes in to my life… , why do all bad things happen to me…? Is this way to think something you recognize? 
No judgment, all those thoughts is from my own experience, they sneak up on me whenever I’m not conscious, tiered or just a bit out of balance in my life. 

I reckoned that I have been in a down pit for some days oe maybe weeks now, when all the bad things happens to me and the perspective are more at the negative point of view. I’m thankful that I eventually see it in my own behavior, and that the minute I see it I have the choice to change my way of looking at things and restart making things happen for me. Everyone can make a change in the way we think, every minute of every day. 

This time when I take a look at the situation I can see it clear what has made me think like this. Stress, immediately when I get in to a situation where I don’t feel comfortable it strikes. I become unaware and start to listen to all the made up stories my mind make up to prevent me from go astray and change a winning concept. For God’s sake, a new situation can bring life-threatening things into my life, right? No, it’s not that likely to happen. I read some place that 85% of all the catastrophic thoughts we thing never happens…

15% isn’t that much so it may be worth the try… 

I know how I work, yet sometimes it just happens. The times are fewer now a days but they occur. Practice is the key. 

Today was a special day, we locked the door to the apartment for the last time and the keys were handed over to the landlord. For me it feels like such a relief, the time spent on going back and forth between the boat and the apartment are finally over. For the last week I’ve been annoyed and irritated over the, seemingly endless situation. I haven’t been a very fun person I can tell you that. 

No one looks good in a “self pity sweater” if you ask me.. 

So now what… We await some new installment of solar panels and a toilet before we can head out on our beloved lake Vänern and our summer adventure. A good opportunity to practice patience, awareness and love for life in all it’s shades, in other words we will bee at the marina for a little more time.  

I choose to se things through a different lens.. Life brings joy to me in some way everyday… , I’m given challenges that are exactly what I can handle, not less and not more… , what is this situation teaching me?… Etcetera. 

Life becomes so much richer and loving when we are feeling rich and loving, like attract alike as the univeral law tells. 

So I will remind me that I see things the way I am, not as they are necessary.

Bless you with awareness for this week! 

Marica