Contribution and YouTube 

How can I contribute to the world I live in today? What is my purpose?
I’ve asked myself these questions more often than I can count nowadays.

I’ve decided to start my own YouTube v-log channel so if you want to follow click here to watch my premiere video.

Be nice and if you like the video push like and subscribe, I will definitely turn the camera around for the next one and maybe I have the courage to take my glasses off ☺️

I hope  you enjoying a good weekend.

Marica

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Be careful what you wish for…

It might just happen. The flip side of the coin is just that, if you just live your life in a phase like there is no end to this life you are safe and hopefully not sorry. What I mean is that it’s a good thing to reconsider your dreams one time more before chasing after them.

We are living our dream now, this last Saturday we launched our boat in the lake for the first time this season. And by this we started to move aboard. It feels bitter sweet, to be honest.

I don’t mean to sound bitter or that I have second thoughts about this, I want to make that clear. What I do want to is to illustrate the duality of our lives, we chase after our goals like a mule chase the carrot and find ourselves standing there scratching our heads and wonder “what now” when we achieve them.

So we achieved our first of many goals, moving aboard. I’m glad that my husband been the doer during this last weeks, because I have been letting myself get affected by the “nej-Sayers” and scarcity with a lot of doubts and hard time letting go of the material things. But just as I said to my loved one; I know this will pass, and when all this is over I will feel relived.

Now that I’m typing this post in our saloon with a cup of tea, my husband beside me and my little son sleeping tight in the v-birth up front, I feel calm. I feel certainty and I have been given a numerous of signs the last week to ensure me that I’m in the right path. Ladybugs, butterfly and the 11:11am clock when I looked at the phone.

I need to remember these feelings of bitter sweetness for the future to come, so I can prepare myself for the emptiness of reaching a goal, and I need to remember that nothing is ever rock solid and goals set today can turn up totally different tomorrow. I’m so happy to get going and to see what the future have in mind for us next.

In two weeks we plan to pull up the anchor and go for some exploration of our beautiful lake Vänern. But first we have some clearance to do in the apartment before we can return the keys. If you want to follow our sailing adventure please visit my husbands and mine common blog Sailing Amie.

To wrap it up, think twice before you chase your dream it might be as you imagined but it might as well turn in a totally different direction than you wish for. If you’re having an open heart and mind you’ll be just fine, otherwise you may feel rather sorry and unsafe in the rocky road to freedom.

Enjoy life!

Marica

Farewells and hard work 

Wednesday, all ready?! 

Feels like it just speed up for each day, for me it seems like yesterday it was Friday. Funerals are never something to look forward to, and nevertheless I didn’t want to miss this one. 

The weather was so good, warm and sunny with birds singing in every three, the Bob Marley’s “three little birds” was a good way to start the ceremony. I am so thankful that I got the chance to bid the final farewell to my loved friend Tina, it was so beautiful and the tears fell from my eyes right from the start. 

This woman was so loved, there was so many people in the chappell and the cortege with cars towards the cemetery seemed endless. I am so happy and thankful for having her as a friend and I have learned so much from her, she was always good to everyone, if she had as little as a penny left when buying food to survive the day she’d share it with the beggars outside the store. And she always had the time to listen if someone needed to talk, and she never spoke a bad word about anyone and lived her life in gratitude, I know she wasn’t that good at putting her own needs first, which is sad. 

I ought to you Tina, that we are now doing these changes in our lives, the loss of you in that early age reminded us that we are mortals and each minute of every day is precious. Thank you for the time we had together and rest in peace til we meet again. ❤️

The errors of this week has been time, too little of it or too much to fill it with. We have been working hard to get some major things done in our boat, only a couple of weeks left now until we relaunches her in the water. This has brought us off routine with both our eating and sleeping habits, if we ever had any. We try to keep it good for our little one but for ourselves it’s hard. 

To work towards the goals we have makes us forget which time and day it is, we are that dedicated. And it feels good to be doing this. 

Wish you all a Happy Easter! 

Marica 

Goals and why’s

In the end of 2016 me and my husband made our vision board, we sat down with a couple of bags with magazines and started to cut out pictures and texts from those that we want in our life. We ended up with lots of boat related pics, white sandy beaches,  palm trees and a lot of online entrepreneurship materials too. 

Now we are about to put our will to the test by ending our rental agreement on our apartment and go and live on our boat over the summer. This makes my comfort zone shiver a bit I can promise you that. 

One thing I’ve learned, is to trust the movement and taking action when the heart tells you to. Up till now I have never been 100% wrong, I have made mistakes and things haven’t turned out quite as planned but hey, I’m here and alive!

We have plans to move the boat down south to Gothenburg or nearby before the winter season and we trust in the universe to provide us with a furnished property to rent down there next winter. (if you’re in sweden and know someone who owns a summer house that is empty in low season, let me know) 

What is the next step then? 

We are heading south, and have decided to take the European water ways through Germany and down to France where we enter the Mediterranean sea. Until a few days ago we where certain about going the outside route in the Atlantic Ocean but we have both felt like we would miss out on a lot of great places in Europe by doing so. 

In some ways it feels like we now have released the ball in a down hill, no turning back. But I know that the past and the now hasn’t given us what we expected in life so it’s worth the change to bring some new horizons to the scene and the chances are good we might be happy and more vivid. 

Why are we doing this? 

As I see it, there is no other way for us to be together as a family, don’t get me wrong, but in the “normal” way we don’t fit in. We have come to conclusions that is so far from the “normal” in so many ways that we just can’t live life the way that is expected of us. 

For example we do not vaccinate our child, we do not eat food that contains more than one ingredient each, we do not give our child gluten or diary products and when we get sick we usually turn to some alternative way to heal ourselves. Oh, and did I mention that we canceled our prenumeration on TV channels six years ago and that I do not read mainstream media or listen to news at the radio. 

I don’t think we are unique in the world, we are just strangers in our own community

Sweden may have been a role model for the “good country” in the 90’s but today we are left behind in many areas. The school system seems to be way past rescue, with too many kids in each class, pupils with no respect for thir teachers and grades that seem to get lower for every year. And the health care, it is world class when it comes to emergency treatment and surgery but if you have some other disorder it’s focused on medical treatment and drugs. The quote “my food is my medicine” are forgotten or ignored, we still feed our cancer patients with sugary foods at the hospitals and tell them to eat sugar during chemotherapy, despite reported evidence that sugar feeds the cancer. (!?)  

I know I can be considered as a grumpy and bitter person writing this, but I’ve seen, read and experienced too much of those above to withstand more of it or to risk my son or any of us to get into it deeper. 

 So we’ll leave, hopefully for good. No flight, simply a movement in to the new and hopefully better. 

Sincerely yours, 

not bitter at all… 

Marica