Characteristic theme of life

Ten years from now I will look back at my life and make a part time summation, I wish my future self to be at ease, filled with joy and pride when doing so. 

I wish myself that kind of feeling like when you want to tap yourself at the back and say “good job, I’m proud of you!” or “way to go girl! Now, let’s keep on rolling 42 more”

I sat with my feet soaked in my son’s bathtub, getting some nice soft skin after the winter with lots of coconut oil. I started to sum up the past ten years, then I was in my early 20’s and had just ended a four year long relationship and had moved back home with my parents for a short time. I was Working part-time as a cleaner and didn’t know what to do with my life. 

Even though I didn’t have a clue about the future I can remember the faith I had even then, not that strong and with the same deep centered feeling I experience today but it was there. I knew I was going to be all right, but how? 

If I got to meet that girl today I would tell her… 

You will soon meet that special someone, who will make you feel complete as well as you want to rip his head of in fury… You will live on a farm with horses, cats and chickens for a while and meet friends for life during this time, you will meet people that will teach you lessons that will strengthen you for further more challenging situations, like a crazy landlord hiding in the darkness of the stable… 

You will live in the city, and realize it’s not your “cup of tea” after almost ruined the relationship with the chosen one… Attending a class in cheese-making 600 kilometers away from home, making friends that will give the reinkarnation theory a whole new meaning. When you get back home you will proceed with starting your own handcrafted cheese production business as the only one from the class, all this and at the same time moving in to a caravan…

You will fail in this business after some struggling years, after letting some abusive people be trusted in to your life, only to feel the gratitude of lessons learned. Expensive experiences but yet so very improving, selfworth is a hard thing to get for some people, almost every person I think. 

 To your own and some old friends surprise, you will be engaged and have a small wedding in the back yard of your brother’s house, barefoot with rose hip flowers in your hair. And you will be a mum, to the most beautiful and unique little boy. You will have so much love in your life, people will come and go but they all will contribute with some special moments, meaning or/and lessons to your life. 

I am so greatful and happy to be alive and to have lived the life I have, and I want to thank everyone of you who’s been a part of it. Even the smallest tiniest bit, thank you! 

I know that I haven’t lived a life of mediocrity up til now and I will not start to do it from now either, I trust in the universe and I have faith in the inner voice that’s guided me up to this point, to guide me further on. I’m ready to start out on this adventure with my family and I approve of myself to have all my needs provided and fulfilled. 

Today is a good day, my feet are smooth and I have my loving family with me. 

Thank you for reading this and have a lovely week! 

Marica 

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